Yesterday was Ash Wednesday. It was the first Ash Wednesday in as long as I can remember that I did not receive ashes. I didn't forget either. I was reminded by my sister via text message that I should get them and I saw people with them on their foreheads walking around all day.
I even had an opportunity to receive them when I came out of Beijing Cafe last night around 10:20 and saw the lights on across the street in Marsh Chapel. My friend Kara and I walked up to the doors and peered inside at all of the people attending mass. She said to me, "We could stay. It's up to you." I declined, so instead we went to Crispy Crepes for dessert.
On the way there, we discussed fate vs. pre-destination and other matters pertaining to faith and religion.
"I'm not sure what I believe anymore, but I've always gotten ashes" I said.
She replied, "Well, what do they mean?"
I couldn't answer that. I mustered up something nonsensical about Jesus spending time in the desert and the palms from Palm Sunday being used to make the ashes and just blurted it out. I also told her that I wasn't giving anything up for Lent.
What would I give up?
-Being awesome? Not possible.
-My old ace in the hole, soda? Already given up for health reasons.
-Women? Yeah, right.
-Alcohol? See above.
-Junk food? What does that really even accomplish? I love junk food. It's delicious.
I'm sure there's something that I could give up for Lent if I really thought hard about it, but I just don't care as much as I did when I was a kid and my teachers and my mom told me to give something up. Maybe I don't have as much faith anymore. Or maybe I never did; it was just obedience to adults and once I was old enough to make my own decisions, I gave up my religion.
In the end, just to satisfy Kara--who didn't like my previous post (I know, how could anyone NOT like that? I was just thinking the same thing.)--I have decided to give up fiddling with the flukes of modern technology and trying to learn how to salsa dance.
Umm, you're welcome, Kara.
P.S. 39 days 'til Jesus gets back, Woot Woot!!!